Good thing yesterday was the official non complaining post, this one is only gonna be me whining, so you may want to stop reading now ^^; I hate not being able to make people feel better. ::hate it hate it hate it:: It's the worst thing in the world to know someone you love and care about is upset and you can't do a thing to help. Even worse when you're not even allowed to try >.< Yes, yes, I know, most of the time you can't make people feel better. I need to just get used to that fact I guess, but damn it, I still don't like it.
The Kiss of Shadow's fanlisting is up. I'm not happy with it, layout five and none were making me happy. Bleh, so I just settled on this one for now. I'll finish the other book one tomorrow, they need to be done by Monday, so lol yeah ^^;;;
Was hoping my FB 1 and Gravie 4 would arrive today, but no. >_< They were mailed a few days ago, they should have been here, but they're not.
God, I'm in such a bad mood at the moment. Heh, it's been awhile since I've been in this pissy of a mood. Prolly in part because the whole week has been kind of draining for me I think. I've been thinking, worrying, and angsting too much. For once, I'd like to be in control of certain situations...I'd also like someone to want me, and not need to decide if they want someone else more. Is that asking too much?
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Pissy
*~Song~* ...
~*January 30 | Not a complaint in sight :o*~
Hehe, as the title says ::drum roll:: this is the official non-complaining entry ~_^ Lol, this is especially for Sou, hehe, since he said I complain so very much in here ;P Sorry it's late, I meant to have this up on Tuesday, then got a tad distracted ^^;;;;
Anyway, me being random follows:
Everyone go play this little fun java game! And see if you can beat my score :P 
Hehe, 1390! Mwhahaha! Also, this is sooo cool. The Gackt PS2 game is gonna be released domestically ^o^ You know, I hope that the Berserk game that will be out in Japan soon will get released domestically as well. That would be nifty. Also a new Inuyasha rpg for PS2 is coming out as well. Fun, fun fun ^_^
Let's see, what else, ooooo, I got Kenshin 3!!! Yay!! I also found the best Gravitation AMV. It has spoilers though, Yuki spoilers, but boy is it an awesome AMV. Everyone go download it if you've read most of the manga or have seen the anime ^_^
Oooo, I finished Weiss. I really really liked it, but it was soooo sad ;.; Lei sent me the OAV ::huggles her:: So I am gonna watch that in a bit, she said it's really sad, heh so I may not watch it right away ^^;; Lei also made me Aya icons for aim, msn and my LJ! They're really pretty. ::smiles::
Hehehe...you know, I'm in a really good mood at the moment, heh, my mood my not stay this great, will depend on some stuff, but at the moment it is, so yeah ^_^ Hehe...people have been flirting with me alot lately ::blushes:: Lol, I'm not use to all this attention...of course I'm sure next week it will be back to, "Rosemary, who?" Lol ~_^
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Happy ^_^
*~Song~* Right Kind of Wrong - LeAnn Rimes
~*January 26 | Hmmmm*~
I wasn't feeling too well today, partly because I didn't sleep well again ^^;; ::needs to stop having bad dreams:: -_- Anyway, I changed some stuff on the side ::points:: I'm using a new Gravie wall, and I added two new quotes, one's by Michael, isn't that cool? Mike's a really good writter ^^, other one is a quote from the Gravie manga (yes, lol, my gravie obsession continues ~_^). Also updated my to do list, I've decided I will do a quiz page and to balance it, a picture page (since I have pics of my anime/figures collection and stuff), yeah I'll prolly put a picture of me on there too (lol imagine that :P). Besides that, I was utterly unproductive today. And we're supposed to have a storm tomorrow/Wed, lol...snowed in maybe. Oh the joy that is winter on the east coast xP
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* so-so
*~Song~* Rage Beat - Gravitation
~*January 25 | So many updates ;P*~
I was productive again :o Shocking, isn't it? Lol. Anyway, what have I do you wonder? LOTS! Finally got the Raspberry Snapple Fling up, yay! I want to lick the layout, aren't the colors yummy? *_* Of course that forced me to update my sites page and my fanlisting collective :P So, did all of that. Also updated all of my fanlistings (I had lol quite a few members to add to almost all of them ^^;).
I've also done some blog stuff. ::points to navigation section:: I made it a table, it was getting rather long, of course now if I did add a quiz section I'd need something else to balance it out, lol, oh well, I like it this way, I was getting annoyed that some stuff was long (word length wise) and others short, like gifts, so this fixes that ^_^ Comment on it, if you'd like (no one ever leaves me comments ;.;)
I also joined two new blog crews, run by Solei. And check out her pretty new CCS layout, she makes such pretty layouts. And, she can draw beautifully as well, she posted a beautiful Tomoe fanart in her newest entry.
Hmmm, I should finish updating my wallpaper site, but now I'm tired. I need to do some stuff on ListerX too, but bleh, I'll do more stuff later, I'm no longer in the mood for coding and stuff like that. I'll make my two book flings this coming week. Also I want to make some new wallpapers. I'm gonna make some gravie ones for Sou and also myself, lol.
Ok, this is gonna be the whine paragraph, lol ^^; I really really want the Fruits Basket and new Kenshin manga >.< Bleeeh. Lei has the FB manga too ::sobs:: Also, I need to get eventually the first Ceres set, cause DDD said it's discontinued so they won't be getting more, so I have the second, but not the first >_< Doesn't that suck? How annoying, lol. Oh well, will be a long while til I have money to get it ::shrugs:: Mike's mom isn't letting him be on the computer when she's home -_- Bleh, so I'm not gonna get to talk to him much for awhile ::sulks:: And I really want to talk to Sou ::nods:: Yes, yes I do. ::wants to talk to Sou...NOW::
Ahem...ok, enough of the temper tantrum, ne? Lol. I'm gonna watch anime or take a nap, or maybe I will update my wallpaper site. I dunno yet, hmmm...Ooooh, btw, TP's Gravie translation sucks. Want an example? What is with them replacing 'suicide' with 'a Silvia Plath style finish?' >.> Bleh, and people whine about Viz, Viz never screws over the translation of their manga series...
Tehe, and lastly before I forget, someone called me cute ^o^ Weeee~ That totally negates the non compliment I got the other day. Mwhaha~ ::dances::
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* tired
*~Song~* Utena OP
~*January 24 | Forgot...again*~
Ok...lol forgot yesterday, so today, Friday Five:
At this moment, what is your favorite...
1. ...song? A tie, Blind Game Again and the Shining Collection, both from Gravitation.
2. ...food? ::thinks:: My dad's homemade pizza
3. ...tv show? 1-800-Missing and the Sharon Osbourne Show
4. ...scent? Erm...Blackberry Vanilla Musk
5. ...quote? Never regret what once made you smile
Random paragraph follows:
Ok, so its terribly early, I was woken up by a poster falling on me, lol. Bleh, guess redecorating the other day was a bad idea, hehehehe. Sou has the fruits basket manga already >_< No fair, he gets everything early by him, lol...and rubs said fact in my face, but, lol teasing me makes him feel better I think, so, it's ok, lol ::giggles:: I talked to him last night for a little ^^. Oooo, I dunno if I've mentioned yet how pretty the layout he's made for the Yami fanlisting is ^_^ Lets see, I talked to Iris yesterday. I'm glad, I've missed talking to her, oooo, and everyone go check out her gorgeous new layout, is she too talented or what? Also talked to Thomas, lol, how nifty, I got to talk to all my favorite people yesterday (Sou, Mike, Thomas, Iris) cool, ne? I usually don't get to talk to all of them the same day ::smiles:: I will get that snapple fanlisting up today if it's the last thing I do ::determined:: but for now...I'm going back to bed for awhile.
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* ::smiles:: Good but tired
*~Song~* Shining Collection (Live) - Gravitation
~*January 22 | Ranodom random ^^*~
Weee~ got an email from Sou, he's soooo sweet ::smiles:: Thank you again ::hugs:: Now hopefully I won't have any more bad dreams for awhile, ne? ^_^
I redid my bedroom walls today, rotated posters and stuff. I need to take pics. I took pics of other stuff. Like my dvds, and my figures ^__^ Lol...i wanted to take pics of all my Kenshin stuff to show Sou, so while at it did all my figures and stuff ::smiles::...lol I fell off my bed while hanging up a poster, tehe ^^;;
Oooo, I made the layout for my snapple fanlisting ::pats self on back:: now just to code it and stuff, lol. Also I changed my winamp skin, Weeeeee~! It's Yuki!!! ::loves anime yuki:: isn't that an awesome skin? It's from Endless Rain. She has a number of cute gravie skins and also nifty gravie walls ^_^ Annnnnd, in honor of my current gravie obsession, some quizzes! tehe, I got all of these from Sou's Blog(hmm, I think maybe I'll make myself a quiz page soonish like I made for Sou's blog):
|
You are an extremely talented person and you are also brilliant. You are mature, charming, straight-forward and you worry about your friends when they're in trouble. You give great advice and you're probably one of the best friends someone can ever have. Take the quiz at Dare to Dream |
Yay! Got the same as Sou did! ::smiles:: It's sooo dead on for him too, and I think it kind of is for me...but lol, when I read this I was like, oh my gosh, no wonder he got that, it is him o.o tehe....next:
You're a determined but you hate being alone.
You always spend your happiness
to relief the ones who you love the most.
You're the best friend that someone could desire.
Protecting, always ready, and you push yourself to keep everything you believe in.
You're a mature person and you know your targets!
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* ::smiles:: Still good, yay!
*~Song~* Yuki's Theme - Gravitation
~*January 21 | Stuff stuff stuff...yup, stuff*~
Heh, I suddenly have this giant urge/desire to talk to Sou right now O.o Erm well yeah I always want to talk to him, but I really really want to talk to him right now for some odd unknown reason. And I mean I talked to him yesterday, and I'm sure I'll get to talk to him again soon, but yeah I want to talk to him now, lol, heh, I think I'm in a really weird mood for some reason and I'm suddenly rather tired too ^^;; Anyway...back to moving stuff off this laptop so I have actual harddrive space again. Hehehe, I have a feeling I'm gonna be sending Sou alot of emails tonight ::likes emailing him:: ^_^ (lol it's actually the 22nd...no shock when do I ever post under the actual date...blogs late at night too much ::giggles::)
Lol, yes, I know my title originality as always is just inspiring ;P Anywho (hehe anywho, such a fun little word, ahem). As of yesterday Sou and I know each other ten months now, that's a long time,ne? ::smiles:: Will be a year in March ::smiles more:: I need to make him something special for that, I dunno what yet ::starts pondering it::
I changed some stuff on the side again. I added a to do list, I see these lots in people's blogs and since I've been having so many sitely do to things I figured I'd go ahead and make myself a list (and with this addition plus a few others this is now the longest iframe in history, I'm sure of it, lol).
As you can see from my list, I'm gonna have a new hostee soon. I'll be hosting the official Setsuna x Sara Fanlisting. ^_^ I really like that pairing, and I saw it was on a free server so asked the webmistress of it if she'd like to be hosted and she would ^^. I also updated some of my favorites and stuff on the side.
I will try to get some site things done today...since I have soooo very much I want/need to do ~_~ But what did I spend most of the afternoon doing? Putting together my new kenshin figures. Bleh series two are not assembled at all. ::makes face:: Took friggin forever to get them together...and to stay together ;.; but they're all done and set up. I'm gonna take pics later, tehe the top of my dvd unit is like a little Kenshin shrine ::smiles::
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* ::smiles:: Good...
*~Song~* Touya's Song - CCS
~*January 19 | lalala*~
Oooooo! I just stumbled onto this mp3 that Sou had wanted months ago, Touya's song from CCS, and I had gotten him one, but the .wma was really crappy and the bass too high and stuff >_< (The song is like impossible to track down...it's on a single cd >.>) But yeah~! Just stumbled onto it tonight completely by accident!!!!! I'm so excited, Weeeee~ Hope Sou still wants an actually good version of it. I've been listening to it...it's soooo pretty ::smiles:: Yay, so happy I found it for him! ^__^
Lol...I so suck at titling posts O.o Anyways, I've been working on my wallpaper site revishs today/tonight more. I'm so proud of myself, I'm more then half done already. In the end looks like I'll be taking eight walls down. Most of them I plan to remake entirely eventually, but they're my older ones, and I can do sooo much better now.
As it is I touched up three of the walls I readded today, I'm especially pleased with the Fruits Basket one, I always loved it, but the extraction was crappy, now it's all pretty ::knows better and cooler wallmaking tips/secrets now:: ~_^ Lol, ok not really, I just know PSP like the back of my hand now so can do tons of nifty things I couldn't when I started making walls. ^^ When I'm all done I think I'll make a favorites page, since I have a few that are total favorites of mine (Like my Tomoe Sheath wall, the Hakkai wall, the dark chii one ^__^)
What else, not much, my mom still isn't feeling well :( She slept most of the day, but that's good she needs her rest. Was yucky weather wise, everything was a sheet of ice, so plans to spend my Suncoast certificates were foiled ::makes face:: Hmm I didn't feel so great parts of the day either. ^^;; But I do feel better then I had days ago, so that's good ^^ I hope Mike's weight class thingie tomorrow doesn't make him hurt too much ^^;; Hope he feels better soon too :(
I need to find nice gravie pics...and I haven't yet >_< Grrr...there must be nice one's somewhere. I want nice ones so I can make Sou pretty gravie walls ^_^ He's on a gravie kick at the moment...so cute. I have songs to send him in a little folder with his name so I don't forget ^^ Hope I get to talk to him soonish...maybe tomorrow, that would be nice, I shouldn't be ungrateful lol, since I heard from/talked to him alot the past week, which made me totally happy, no wonder I have been practically skipping around the house the last few days ::smiles:: But yeah I love talking to him so no much is too much. ^o^
Oh almost forgot, changed my winamp skin. It's Aya! it's one of the neatest skins in existance, and it took me months to track it down (I've had it awhile). But yeah I should take a bigger screen cap to show it off, since it is just stunning to look at, really you can stare, and the reason it took so long to find is the skinner that made it hasn't updated her site in years and the link for this skin didn't work anymore ;.; I finally stumbled onto it archived somewhere after searching for over a month and I'm so glad I did find it ::smiles::
Ok...off to bed with me...I really need to work on at least my snapple fanlisting soonish here ^^;; the prob is I'm not sure how I wanna set it up yet, bleh ::must decide soon:: ~_~ And, hehehe, more gravie music, sense a trend here? All cause of Sou ::grins and winks:: Erm someone leave me a comment? Please? ;.;
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Happy ^_^
*~Song~* Welcome to My Romance - Gravitation
~*January 18 | Weeeeeeeeeeee!~^o^*~
I talked to Sou ::jumps up and down:: I'm soooo happy ^___^ Yay, yay, yayayay!! Tehe. ::happy happy happy:: Weeeeee~ ::smiles more and bounces around:: Kay...that's all, tehe. I'm off to watch GRAVIE now ::snickers:: <-- Being mean ~_^
Me again, forgot to mention I changed my wall, tehe...nifty wall, ne? And Shuichi is holding condoms XD ::giggles:: Lol, this wall puts me into giggly fangirl mode ::giggles more:: Once I decide on what winampskin I wanna use at the moment I'll update that too (I have my awesome bleeding Kamui one at the moment...but may change it in a few...
I also wanna add this really adorable quote of Sou being cute and adorable, but forgot to ask before he had to go, so I'll wait til he says its ok (I'm sure he won't mind) ^_^
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* happy happy happy happy ^o^
*~Song~* Glaring Dream - Gravitation
~*January 17 | Uber website productive*~
Okay, first things first. I missed Sou last night ^^;; Eep, heh, I had fallen asleep (at like 6 again ^^;; that's two nights in a row, oi). I've not been feeling too hot and wasn't for most of today either ^^;. But anyway, I'm getting distracted. The message he left me made me all smiley ^__^ However, you do realize love that I reserve the right to get sad if I miss you a second time, threats or no threats ~_^ Tehe, but yeah, I wasn't sad, I was just smiling cause of the nice and adorable message/threat ::giggles:: Hope I get to talk to him again soonish though ::smiles:: Oh and of course, I think part of me just being so happy to see the message from him was that I was a tad worried still cause of how I was last time we talked ^^;; Of course I know you always forgive me when I'm silly and stuff, but you know me, I worry. But yeah, tehe it really was such a sweet and adorable little message you cutie you (ooo <-- I've not called you cutie in awhile ::grins::)
Ok...now onto the title, so yes I was uber productive today...shocking since I slept so much O.o I moved all my walls back to my site. Which was no easy task. I need to zip all of them (mwhahaha...direct linkers foiled ::winks and grins::) then needed to recode everything and since I have so many walls/pages now that takes a small eternity ^^;;;; I reorganized my anime fanlistings page(click on the domain link under navigation on the side ::points:: then when you get to my main site cliques, then Anime/Manga ^^), I posted in my LJ, and I even made two wallpapers :o See? Uber productive ^_^
Other news, I'm getting four new cels and a sketch. A nifty Miaka in pain cel (lol I'm such a sadist I have a thing for cels of characters in pain), a cell of Tamahome (::squeels::), two marmalade boy cels (one of Meiko, and one tiny one of Yuu and Miki) and then a Haruka sketch!! ::squeals more:: Check out my cel gallery, I added an Upcoming section and they're in there. Gotta love sales, everything but the two FY ones were under ten bucks each :o. And on that note...off to get some sleep...
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Weeeee
*~Song~* None
~*January 15 | Yes, yes, I am an idiot*~
Yay, I talked to Sou last night ^__^ ::points up:: see that title though? ::is an idiot:: I was asslike for large parts of the conversation. I'm sorry again...I know...I really need to start dealing better then I have been...cause how I've been acting as of late is totally unacceptable...::sighs a little::...but it was awesome getting to talk to you ^o^ ::hands you some new Gravie plushies:: ~_^
You know...I had plans to be all productive site wise. I was gonna reorganize my anime fanlisting page, was gonna make the layout for the rasberry snapple one and at least start one of the two book layouts...and alas what have I done from that list? Oh right, nothing ><; Oh well. The reason is I ended up falling asleep at like 6ish ^^;; so yeah...heh.
Look what's back! Ok, lol so TSP wasn't down or anything, but hell was dead ;.; But Aelice is back and posting so Tristan (the sexy Inquisitor demon I play...mwhah ~_^) is back in action again. I was starting to miss Hell, Alucin and Omega (those being the two characters Trist is interacting with and possibly trying to seduce ::wink wink::).
Oooo, you know...tehe...my next avvie on AN should so be a part of this doujin cover I like (back cover) and its like clothes tangled with bedsheets...tehe...sexy, ne? I'm in a mood suddenly aren't I? ::giggles::
Let's see...what else should my adorable and flirty self talk about. Ah, yes, I've been watching Weiss Kruez. I really like it, alot actually (I dunno, lol maybe I'm just easily entertained). And as usual Sou was right (bleh, so annoying, lol I have too many men in my life that are always right ::makes face::) the outtakes are very funny. Now I need to say here, I'm not for Weiss yaoi. Just from the first disc it's obvious they are not gay >.> So yeah, if they all love women pairing them up does not work.
Speaking of men (ok I got off that, but moving back to it, lol), I've gotten to talk to Thomas quite a lot the last few days, yay! I hadn't talked to him much in awhile. ^^ I always get sad when I go long periods without talking to friends, and I like talking to Thomas alot. ::smiles:: It's nice, I got to talk to Sou last night ::smiles:: and I've gotten to talk to Mike alot this week, and then Thomas. Since I'm off on this tangent anyway, I hope Mike is in less pain now, poor thing. And I really hope Sou's knee starts feeling betetr I'm all worried about that ::frowns:: And oooh while I'm thinking about it, Sou updated the side thing on his blog and took some new quizzes. ^^ (And his dumb connection got cut off when he was on the other day doing that so we didn't get to talk, but made me feel good he felt bad cause he wanted to and was planning to talk to me ^o^).
You know...I prolly won't get to talk to two friends anymore..,I'm not sure. I've decided though, that what I did/do (which has to do with why I may not get to talk to them again...) was right. I did what I thought was best and I did what imo is best for said friends. I have always believed very strongly, that you should push people you care about. It's not like I push just to push, I only push people if I think they need it, when they're hurting or lying to themselves. I talked to some people about this stuff, and me and stuff and how I am. And well yeah, people know that I don't push to be mean or annoying or cause I enjoy upsetting people, at least they should and the people that truly know me know this, if people think otherwise they don't know me at all. If you care about someone, sometimes you need to push them. And I've decided I won't apolagize for it anymore. A good friend isn't someone who sits quietly by while their friends hurt themselves just because they're afraid of upsetting them or angering them. Imo, a real friend will do what it best for their friends no matter what, even at the expense of said friendship. That's how I am, I care more about my friends being happy then I do about them getting mad at me. I dunno Michael and Sou siad some things that made me feel good and made me think. Like Mike said he thinks that I think I upset people more then I do. Sou told me he's never known anyone that cares about people as much as I do, heh, and that maybe that's why I worry so much about upsetting peopel and it's so easy for me to get upset...
Well I'll shut up now...heh...I'm always so random in here...aren't I...and in case some people may not be able to tell...I'm happy...I've actually been rather happy the last few days...I had some sad moments(the thought of losing people I care about always depresses the hell out of me...), cause its easy for my moods to shift and me to get upset (just like I can easily get really happy), but right now, I'm smiling...even if I am slightly contemplative...
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Random ^^
*~Song~* None
~*January 9 | Palm and Berserk*~
I've been playing with a new toy the last few days, a palm handheld. I had gotten this for my graduation this past summer from my uncle, but didn't end up opening and starting to use it til just recently, mainly because I had all things that even slightly reminded me of graduation packed away and out of site ^^;; Anyway...this thing is soooo cool. The model I have is a Zire71, and My parents got me some stuff for it(you pretty much need a memory/expansion card to do most stuff, and my uncle hadn't gotten me one, but he did say he'd buy me one ::makes note to discuss this with him, lol::). They got me: a japanese talking phrases/dictionary program, an mp3 expansion kit thingie (this is in the mail on its way to me) and some ebook reading software. Oh and solitare, gotta have solitare of course, also I downloaded the trial version of the words to go program (so you can use Word, notpad, excel docs, ect. on your palm).
I just love everything about it, it's so terribly cool, and I think it's great that it can play mp3s and stuff too (since I don't have a usb2 port and won't be adding one or getting a new comp anytime soon so can't use an ipod >.<), and I adore that it can be an ebook reader!! (I've always wanted to get an ebook). Plus the words to go is handy as I put my text translations for Yami on it. Now no need to waste ink and paper, and its easier to hold this and the manga then the manga and a big stack of paper. ^_^Of course it has an address book, and stuff, and you can do a to do list (I've made a to buy/read/watch list too, lol), and can keep memos and stuff (the little doodling by hand thing = very cool). It has so many pretty color themes too. I'm using plum at the moment. And how could I forget, it has a built in camera too. ::grins::
In other news, I'm obsessed with Berserk at the moment. I finished the anime a few nights ago and I totally adore it. I need to save up now to get the manga imports (it's still ongoing in Japan and currently has 26 tanks out). I'm not patcient enough to wait for Dark Horse to get where the manga left off (tank 13 I think).
I changed my wallpaper to a berserk wall ::points:: I can't find any Berserk winamp skins though ::sobs:: someone (like perhaps a super talented winampskiner) needs to make berserk winamp skins ::subtly hints:: ~_^ (lol and if you're reading this I wonder if you remember me emailing you months back to tell you I adored your site and suggesting a Soujirou skin from Kenshin one day maybe...since you know he always wears blue and is so adorable and all that, hehehe). Ahem...moving along ^^; I want to watch the anime again already :o that's a sure sign this had made it into my top five.
OMG the outtakes...so hysterical!! Especially when Griffith breaks into song XD Oh and I completely hate Griffith. I love Caska and Guts though...and the Guts x Caska pairing. Poor Caska ;.; ::hates hates hates Griffith:: >_<
My mom has another chemo treatment on Monday, since she started a day late with the scheduale getting changed and all. She's been having trouble breathing and stuff ^^;; but the took all kinds of tests today and nothing was wrong, other then that she's doing pretty good...still really tired and stuff, but the pain has lessened so that's really good. ^_^
And erm, yeah I know I've not posted in awhile...that was kind of on purpose...guess I'm back to writing in here, I'm not 100% sure though yet...eh...I was being moody and dumb and stuff...and I'm kind of over it, I took Sou's very good advice and take a little time away from some stuff and that helped clear my mind. With everything going on I've been kind of highish strung ^^;; heh...too much shit keeps happening too close together. Oh well.
Ooooo before I forget, I'd been going crazy and driving other people crazy (heh, like Lei ^^;;) to try and find the second version of Evanescence's My Immortal...and just when I've given up hope, guess what happens? I get an email from Evan (I'm on their official news email list thingie) and if you own the Fallen cd they have the band version of the song available for download ::squeels:: I was soooooooooooooooo happy when I found it...heh...that so kind of helped me snap out of my mood too ^^;
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Hyper O.o
*~Song~* Forces - Berserk
~*January 4, 2004 | ...*~
So yeah...my mom starts Chemo tomorrow. Hope it helps her feel better soonish since she's been in ALOT of pain the past week ^^;;; The nurse kind of lead her to believe the first treatment would already make the symptoms stop...hope so...she'll be really depressed I think if that doesn't happen like they said ::frowns::
Completely unrelated note, I may get some new manga. ^_^ My aunt has an amazon gift certificate and I think she's gonna let me use it. Yay! That would be cool. I think I'd get some mahnwa I've been wanting to try. ^^
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* ...
*~Song~* None
~*January 3, 2004 | Bleh~*
I got myself really depressed last night ::sighs:: and I've still been rather wishy washy and depressed all day. And I'm still having trouble sleeping. Bleh ::sighs more:: Oh well...I was almost sleeping tonight (its like the 4th, heh) but my mom couldn't sleep...she's sleeping now though
I'm just really tired and really worried...worried about her...and then I'm worried they won't let me have a postponment monday morning for jury duty...and I hope they give my mom painkillers or something...she was in alot of pain today ::frowns::
I hope i get to talk to Sou soon. I really really really really wanna talk to him. Heh, I'm kind of worried he'll be on and I miss him...hope not...I want to talk to him. Hope he's doing ok and stuff. I did get an email the other night...but yeah...still want to talk to him...email doesn't replace getting talk to him ^^;; I miss him...and I know talking to him for even a little will make me feel better...
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Bleh
*~Song~* None
~*January 1, 2004 | New Year...yay?~*
I'm in a weird mood...heh. Usually, I'm happy on New Year's eve, and its all exciting to be starting a new year and stuff. But eh, not so much this year. New Year's eve was kind of dull...my parents went to bed early and stuff...none of us felt well...and well I have this feeling of forboding. Heh...I'm not at all sure this year will be any better, I mean...the last few years haven't gotten better...just worse. Granted, this year wasn't all bad. I mean I met Sou and stuff...but...still...heh...
Erm anyway, so yeah, its January and its 2004. I moved the Dec entries to their own page, and took the Christmas stuff away. While at it I also updated all the side stuff including the current winamp and wall I'm using. Sorry I've not blogged in so long...I kept meaning too, and I was like all peppy and stuff then stuff happened and I lost my urge too.
My mom has been really sick. Since Christmas night. She has all the symptoms now of lymphoma...it gets a little better then its bad again...so she's in pain...and her glands are all swollen...she keeps getting the cold sweats and stuff and is depressed and all ::frowns:: wish I could help...but there is nothing at all I can do...
I got to talk to Sou Saturday and Sunday nights ^o^ Tehe, that was soooo awesome...I also got an email from him Monday, which was nice of him to answer my question and stuff. He's sick...I hope he's feeling better. Was very sweet and kind of him to come on to see how my mom was doing and stuff. Hope I get to talk to him again soon (heh I feel a little like I shouldn't be whining about missing and wanting to talk to him, since i did get to not that long ago...but...well damn I do miss and want to talk to him, heh ^^;)
I've gotten lots of stuff in the mail this week...the stuff I bought with Christmas money ^_^ Came so fast, tehe. The highlights are definately my yami import manga (::squeals:: I even have a site with text translations of the whole thing ^o^) and my PS2 games. I ended up getting: Dead of Alice: Hardcore (I've been playing this most of the night...it soooo totally rocks...DoA was always my fav PS game and this version is like 50x cooler ^o^), .hack//Infection, FFX (to go with my FFX-2 my parents had given me for Christmas), Way of the Samurai (very very nifty game), and Kingdom Hearts. Yay! ^_^
Oh some site stuff here, I have a new fanlisting, to my fav Creed song, My Sacrifice. Also, ListerX is now listing doujinshi and shitajiki (lol..cause of me mainly and I'm the main content handler for both...this may so bite me in the ass, but its cool so I don't really care ~_^).
Erm what else. Oh, Alice 19th is soooo awesome, I think it may become my favorite manga series. I also adore Infinite Ryvius, wow I didn't think I'd like it half as much as I do. It's sooo cool, aaaand the dvd is chock full of disc extras, plus the box and dvds come with shitajiki ::smiles::
It's 5 am...on the 1st...why am I up? Oh right...cause I apparently don't sleep anymore -_- ::sighs:: Oh well...hopefully this not being able to sleep thing will pass soon...
And I almost forgot, heh, but Happy New Years everyone...hope everyone has a happy and healthy one...::smiles:: I got to wish Lei and Mike a happy new year already privately, and lol I sent Sou a number of emails saying happy new year (what else is new, when don't I send him tons of emails), but yeah to everyone I've not gotten to talk to yet, have a happy, safe and healthy one. ^^
*~Rosemary~*
*~Mood~* Tired
*~Song~* Good to be Alive - DJ Rap